By Wahida

Indeed very touching AhNgah...

Im sobbing but luckily im the instrument workshop and there is nobody around..

 

That's why dont forget to raise hand and make doa' to those the beloved ones, be it who had gone or still alive. May all of us will be placed in the Jannah later. Ameen.

By CW Laila

Ya masa dalam ambulance atok masih berpegang pada palang ambulance… not sure ah Ngah or ah De dalam ambulance… ah De tolong confirmkan… Juga Pok Pis,,, mungkin masih ingat sape yang menangis dgn kuat… Chek and kak Siah ada masa tu,  Cuma tak ingat masa bila dia sampai… masa atok di mandikan chek n kak siah ada sama..

By CW Roslan

Now is 8.15pm, malam Jumaat.  Sebentar lagi @ 9.11pm genaplah 17 tahun AhTok pergi.

I was in the ambulance, sitting in front.  And I only remember MakTua at the back.  Now I know TamLa and AhDe were there, too.  So you must remember when AhTok tried to get up and managed to sit down on the stretcher when the ambulance was passing along the Selangor Medical Centre (mass tu belum ada lagi kot).

When did Chek arrive at Shah Alam?  I remember there were only us in the family at Shah Alam when AhTok passed away.  And I'm quite sure too that it was Jang who cried the loudest.  Poppiz mungkin kemudian kot.

By CW Laila

Sekali lagi betul-betul menyentuh perasaan.. Semoga Allah meletakkan atok di dalam golongan org2 beriman… Amin..

Rasanya confirm Ah Pis yang meraung sekuat hati ,  Pada masa itu Chek isteri arwah ayah Cik menenangkan Pok Pis…

Dari Allah kita datang dan kepada Allah kita kembali...

Malam terakhir semasa di CCU abah dah senyap dan TamLa ingat mungkin Tido lena..rupanya itu adalah malam terakhir, malam last Ah Ngah pun  berada di luar CCU.  Dari HKL to Shah Alam dalam Ambulance yang teman arwah atok adalah  Mak Tua, Ah De n Tamla.  Masa tu Mak Tua pun berkata ‘’ senyap doh aboh “…

By CW Roslan

Your recollections, HaniA & TamLa, are pretty accurate.  But I remember it was AhJang who cried the loudest.  Eveybody was around at Jalan Tangsi house except  MakNgah and Honey Bee.  They went home to USJ first after HKL and blamed the maid for being late in going to Jalan Tangsi - hence, missed the last moments.

 

AhTok was laying in the middle of AhLong living room, surrounded by everybody.  KLong was grinding the morphine to administer the painkiller to AhTok.  MakTua had to drip it into his mouth as AhTok was already unconscious. I realized his breathing was very laborious, but MakTua commented that that was typical of AhTok's breathing while sleeping.  I was not convinced as I thought the way AhTok breathed, it was a sign that the time was very near.

 

I knew and accepted the fact that AhTok was leaving us.  If you remember, it was Thursday evening when we brought AhTok back from the hospital - around after 5pm.  I remember that very well as I thought we might be stuck in the rush hour.  The ambulance used the NKVE route and silently I prayed for Abah to go not earlier than Maghrib (as we believe it's good to kembali ke Rahmatullah on Friday).  Along the way, it was time for Magrib azan, and silently I thanked God fo answering the prayer.

 

When I wrote the Lasting Impression last night, I didn't realize it was the night of the anniversary for AhTok's demise 17 years ago - 3 months after HoneyBee's birth.  The time and date was malam Jumaat, 9.11pm on 25th November 1993. 

 

Of all the people, TamLa - who was still single then, and had spent the most time with AhTok at HKL - was having a rest/nap at the back room at that precise moment.

 

Other than the earlier laborious breathing, AhTok went peacefully.  Around him, we didn't even really realize that until somebody noticed that AhTok was so quiet - hence, AhLong attempt to detect his breathing/pulse. Dari Tuhan kita datang, kepada Tuhan kita kembali.

 

Yes, it was AhJang who broke into a loud cry.  Perhaps, during AhTok's final years of his life, AhJang went through a lot of things togather with AhTok.  And Poppiz being the bongsu, of course. I particularly remember AhTok and AhJang/Poppiz humming the Isabella song, and the accident AhTok and AhJang experienced at Pasir Gajah.  AhTok was unhurt but distressed by the incident but AhJang's knee had to be treated at Hopital Kemaman Emergency.  Surely he didn't have his seat belt secured and the impact of the collission must had thrown him to the dashboard!  So, AhJang, check if the parut is still there?

 

I was, as Hanisah said, composed as I was expecting that final moment.  And I believe it was better for AhTok, and for all of us, to go rather than to prolong the suffering.

 

And we believe that the much better life is waiting in the Hereafter for the righteous guided by the Book.  We believe and pray AhTok will be blessed by God.

 

We gave them, who believe in what has been revealed to you (Prophet Mohamad) and what was revealed before you, and have absolute faith in the life to come.  These are the rightly guided by their Lord; these shall surely triump (2:1-3)

 

To quote (3: 145) again:  Nor can a soul die except by Allah's leave, their term being fixed as by writing.  If any do desire a reward in this life, We shall give it to him; and if any do desire a reward in the Hereafter, We shall give it to him also.  And swiftly shall we reward those that (serve Us with) gratitude.

 

Amen...for AhTok.

By CW Laila

Ah Ngah. Hanisah… Tam La juga sedih sangat ketika memnbaca ini…  Mari Kita sama-sama sedekahkan Al Fatihah untuk Arwah Atok…Al- Fatihah…

Semua itu masih segar dalam ingatan…. Pada masa atok menghembuskan nafas terakhir TamLa berada di bilik Belakang,  Sebaik sahaja TamLa pegi kat atok ah Long tengah letakkan  tangan kat hidung atok… then kata “Abah dah tak ada”  Pok Pis meraung sekuat hati…

Yang Hidup pasti mati…semuanya telah tertulis oleh Allah… Pengorbanan Arwah atok sungguh besar…kerja siang dan malam demi mencari rezeki untuk anak2..

Marilah kita sama-sama menjadi muslim dan muslimah yang sejati dan jadikan Syurga di Akhirat adalah detinasi yang terakhir.  Penuhkanlah Saham di Akhirat sebaik-baiknya…

By CW Hanisah

This is indeed a very touching story it made me cry. Thank you for sharing this AyahNgah. AhLong is not very good in sharing or exchanging stories with his kids so the only worthy source is you :)

I too remembered Atok's very last night and the memory of what went on is still strong, though I did not necessarily understand what was going on.

Many neighbours gathered in front of the house upon the arrival of the ambulance. Ambulances rarely wonder around in the neighbourhood so I guess having one had made people become anxious.

Pokpis, Kak Ida, my brothers and myself were having our meal in the kitchen, sitting on the floor in front of the fridge. I would occassionally go back and forth from the kitchen to the living room where everybody was reading surah Yaasin, and Atok in the middle. On one of the trips AhLong had asked me to call Pokpis, who was then in the kitchen, and so I did. Being a girl who was very clingy to Pokpis, I escorted him back to the living room and that was when we heard the news from AhLong "Abah dah tak ada...". Pokpis cried instantly.

And that was also my first time seeing AhLong weeping. :(  I think MakTua had to comfort him.  AhNgah,of all the others composed himself very well.

I was only 5 / 6 thus emotions, feelings and responds to the atmosphere were still at their lowest levels hence my pretence in sobbing gently when sitting next to Kak Ida (who was sobbing softly for real) while reading Yaasin. Almost everybody else was doing that so I just thought I'd blend in.


Pardon me if what I've written isn't really the true picture. It is what I remember vividly if not correctly.


Al Fatihah. Atok is a special someone to us. May Atok and all of us be rewarded with Jannah Firdaus.


I look forward to reading your 'Kisah anak gajah'